resturantaphobia

i don't have it anymore. sure it's been only a week and that is some big talk, but i am a big girl. it used to be when i would start a diet and husband would say, hey let's go out to dinner, i would almost pee my pants. what the hell was i going to do with all those options? there are bad bad things on there and i can't stop myself from ordering them. and there are not ingredients or calorie counts listed so what is there for me?
with this naturally thin thing i can eat anything, i just have to make my choices. we went to rainforest cafe last night for dinner and it was totally easy. i started with a salad with balsamic dressing and then i had the tuscan chicken. yes i did eat the whole thing of mashed potatoes, but it amounted to about a baked potato and it was delish and it made me happy without making me too full. the chicken was grilled and also delish topped with cucumbers and olives. i didn't clean either of my plates, salad or dinner, so i acutally got through a rule. i knew i wanted a few bites of dessert so i didn't eat teh bread that came with my salad, i gave it away right away. i thought it might taste good, but not as good as that chocolate brownie i wanted to get my mouth on. so i ate a little more dessert than i anticipated, but i dont' think i went overboard like i usually would and i got up to take daughter number 2 to the bathroom before the plate was empty and i told husband to have what was left covered before we returned and he complied. overall i think i was on the track to success. it will get easier with time.
oh i should mention i had a mocha for breakfast and for lunch i had...what did i have, oh yeah, the left over quesadillas. i had no snacks yesterday because i just never felt the need.
i also lost one more pound. that makes 4 this week.
sweet