problem is i was doing so well and patting myself on the back and all that and thinking "wow, this is so easy this time" then i think i crashed and burned yesterday.
i found myself a little on the binge side of eating. i did my best to stop it, and when i found myself saying that i had already screwed up for the day so i might as well keep on trucking, i knew that i couldn't and stopped myself from going any further. it wasn't easy. it exhausted me. it was literally being in a boxing ring and not actually punching but doing that little jog thing where you just try to stay out of the other gloves way.
so here is what i ate
breakfast: found a slim fast protein bar in the cupboard and ate that because i was actually hungry in the am. washed it down with a cup of skim milk.
lunch: ikea lunch again, but this time i went the salmon route with some kind of veggie cake thingies and then a few bites of a thin torte that i shared with the kids
then the cookies happened or what i call snack: bought the kids some cookies while in the store to keep them happy. i really wanted to try one so i did, and then that led to like 4 more. what the hell. i was like on autopilot. felt crappy about it
dinner: we talked about food for a long time on the way home and it had me craving a million bad things and i ended up at taco bell. i had cheesy nachos (which i shared with the kids and the few i did eat were doused in salsa from home) then i had a fresco soft taco with beef and then i tried one of the carnitas cantina tacos...which was horrible by the way so i only took 2 bites and moved on. sure you may not think that sounds that bad but i had purchased a mcd's hamburger for my littlest one and she only took a few bites, so once again, on autopilot, i shoved that thing in my mouth. i would have tried to get the other daughters cheese roll up, which i don't even like, but luckily she wouldnt' let me have a bite and when she wasn't looking the dog ate them so i couldn't.
after all that i still felt hungry. i wanted to snack so bad. but i knew i had had enough for the day so i went through another phantom boxing match and won.
god i really want cheddar and sour cream potato chips right now.....