Tuesday, August 3, 2010
check yourself before you wreck yourself
i have often said that, but never to myself. i am going to start. and i have to share something...i feel calm. usually before i start a diet or a some other food related change, i am terrified. i make sure i know what day i am going to start and then i go out and eat all the food that i know i am no longer able to have. i must gain like 10 pounds just getting ready to lose. i hate being told what i can't have anymore. it's almost like the death of a friend. and then if i go too long without something i end up binging like a mad woman. i think i will not do that anymore. eating the "naturally thin" way, there are no foods off limits. i can still have ice cream, but i have to choose to do it, weigh out my options and eat just enough (bethenny suggests eating treats like ice cream and chips and such in a ramekin to keep portions just right). i like that she says she is not afraid of avacado anymore and can eat a few bites because she knows she will see it again. i think that is brilliant. i am soo terrified when i eat something delish and not exactly good for me that i can never have it again, i eat it all, and lick the damn plate. i don't think i have to do that anymore. no food is going away. i can have it. i just have to learn how to have it.